A Trip Down Memory Lane

I never know what words to capitalize in the titles of my posts. There is a good chance if I went back to elementary school I would fail. Not even joking. I once watched Are You Smarter Than A 5th Grader. No....no Mr. Foxworthy....I am not.

Anywho. After spending some time in Romans tonight (I bounce around. You'll learn that. I have a hard time sticking to one chapter....and I usually bounce to Romans). Romans is one of my go to books. Mostly because it's just so honest. It's out there and raw. It's so like Paul to be so forward (I often convince myself that Paul and I would be friends in real life. If I could have dinner with ANYONE past or present Paul would probably be one of my top choices. I'm so off track already...I actually don't even believe I've gotten ON TRACK yet this post. So here goes....

After blacking out in Romans I decided to pick up the trusty journal. Now that I have started online journaling I don't spend a lot of time journaling to myself. I probably should, since you guys don't get to know EVERYTHING that goes on in my life (but trust me....you get to hear the good stuff), but I haven't been for a while.

One of the last posts I had done caught my attention. I'm going to give you the guts and glory of it...

"April 4, 2010 - I haven't journaled in so long and I think I need to. I have decided to leave Pathways. It's hard for me to even write it because of the anxiety it brings up. I KNOW all the promises I'm given in the bible about God taking care of me, so I don't know why I'm anxious about this. I have been praying so much, and I know it's not where I should be. My head still wants to stay, but the Bible, my thoughts in prayer, and all council have told me not to stay. I tried a new church today and my Spirit didn't leap. I want my Spirit to leap. I want Jesus to say, "Here Kate. This is where I want you." Holding nothing back, I believe He wants me at the DTC. Why am I scared to do God's will? I believe getting me out of Pathways was the first step. I don't think he wants me anywhere but Iowa. Do I start looking for a job there? I just want to go back to the DTC...but I love my job here so much."

I read that entry in my journal and two things stand out to me. 1. I believe He wants me at the DTC. And 2. But I love my job here so much.

How many times do we do this? How many times a DAY to I foolishly put my desires for my flesh over the desires of the Lord? Do I HONESTLY think that I will find any satisfaction living for myself? I want to stay in Denver for my JOB when I feel the Lord calling me to move to be in fellowship and be in a community where my soul sings for His glory?

So cyber community, do me a solid this week. Take that thing in your heart, that thing the Lord is calling you to do but you don't want to because your flesh is fighting against it, and just do what the Lord wants. It's really that easy. Don't spend 2 months like I did battling the Lord for something of this earth. Just choose the Kingdom.

Also, since I'm apparently in the mood to tell all you faceless people what to do, share the gospel with someone today. Pray the Lord puts someone with a soft heart in front of you, and just share with them. It could alter their eternity.

It's midnight. I'm blacked out. But I think I'm going to hit up one more chapter in Romans before I call it a night. I bet Paul has got one last goodie for me this evening....